It gets harder to write each day…already the drive is waning…the focus and attention to daily practice gets harder…and I guess that is the point.
There are so many things I want to change. I want a daily writing practice, a daily meditation practice, a daily fitness practice. I want to find a spiritual community. I want to find self-definition that is real. But I can’t do it all at once.
So this is where it begins. With daily writing practice rooted in something that has been a part of me for as long as I can remember…the practice of faith. And I know this won’t be the only day when it is hard. When there are fifteen minutes left in the day and I haven’t written yet. When I read faith-based websites and personal meditations hoping for inspiration. And then it comes back to this. Sit at computer and write. Practice is only that. Sit at computer and write.
Maybe what I write on those days won’t be as “inspired” or “exciting” but that isn’t the point. The point is the practice. The point is to write.
In the twenty minutes of wandering the internet for inspiration, the one thing I kept encountering was the question of what habits are holding you back. Perhaps what I’m finding as I wander through this entry tonight is that it’s the lack of habitual behaviors that holds me back. I have 40 days to form a “habit” of daily writing practice. Let’s hope it sticks.