For someone not necessarily attuned with nature, I feel very aware of the turning of the year and the timing of the ancient celebrations makes a lot of sense to me. I am always very ready to celebrate life and wellness when May comes, and so I understand why this time of year was set aside for those very things. I am also a May baby, so this month is of particular importance to me for that reason as well.
Christina at Witchvox writes: ”Beltane marks the passage into the growing season, the immediate rousing of the earth from her gently awakening slumber, a time when the pleasures of the earth and self are fully awakened. It signals a time when the bounty of the earth will once again be had. May is a time when flowers bloom, trees are green and life has again returned from the barren landscape of winter, to the hope of bountiful harvests, not too far away, and the lighthearted bliss that only summer can bring.” And when I can think and feel clearly, between the sneezes of allergy season, I feel this. It makes me understand why students start to get restless – yes, the end of the school year is near, but more deeply rooted in them, their souls are resonating with the new life, and they want to be free, not confined by walls and books and assignments. As my own semester of study winds down, I know exactly how they feel.
This time of year makes me very aware of how far we as a society have strayed from following our natures and our spirits. While I want nothing more, on the spirit level, than to be outside and carefree, I stay inside, full of stress and exhaustion. And that’s the problem. Even when we can feel the pull of nature telling us to go outside, go for a walk, light a candle, watch the sunset, we tell ourselves we can’t. We say that there are too many other things we have to do, and then we spend an hour on Facebook, or watching television, or doing something else that we don’t need to do, but just do, absently, because it’s there.
My goal for this month is to spend more time listening to the inner voice telling me what I want to do, rather than just doing what’s there. While I can’t abandon the very real modern day demands of work, class, internship – I can be more in tune with myself in the other hours of my day, when I am free to do what I will, and rarely do. Maybe I will find myself spending more time on the porch, or going for walks, or doing nothing at all. Maybe I will find more mindful ways to do the mundane tasks that I have to do. Or maybe I’ll just turn off some of the chatter and find a little more peace.
What will you do to honor the merry month of May?
I spent a lot of time over a few days thinking about and participating in a conversation recently, on Facebook, about abortion rights. Normally, this is a high stress, heated issue. And while it did dominate my thoughts, it was not in an angry way – because neither of us wanted to fight. We just wanted to speak, openly and honestly, about why we believe what we do. Even though we knew that we would not convince the other person to change sides. And maybe that’s the reason it worked – because we weren’t trying to convince someone else, we were simply speaking for ourselves, and witnessing our own beliefs.
Political debate will always be a part of who I am. I have strong feelings about rights and equality and freedom, and not allowing an elite small group to make decisions for those who they can’t possibly represent or understand. In a lot of ways, I do think our democracy has evolved into elected oligarchy. Politicians claim to speak for the majority, or for their constituents, but really, they are speaking for themselves and those who agree with them. Everyone is shouting into a vacuum, and no one can win, because they are spending so much time trying to convince others to follow their beliefs that they have forgotten to explain why they believe them in the first place.
So here is my challenge to you: take some time to explain, in a journal, or on Facebook, or to another person, some belief that really matters to you. Explain why it matters, how it affects your belief system, and what its roots are. Don’t worry about convincing them that you’re right, or that they should do things your way, just explain why you feel the way that you do. And see how it makes you feel. And tell me about it in the comments.
Getting “balanced” is not the remedy to stress. Passion is.
– white hot truth
I tell myself that I need balance…but I’m wrong…what I need is time to explore all of the unbalanced curiosities that pull my interest in all directions…
i admit, i had grand plans, and then of course, yesterday, i posted nothing. but it was also an odd day, since i worked from 8 am to 11 am, and didn’t immediately crash afterward…i got groceries, did laundry, watched bones, hung out with jen, made dinner…and generally had a pretty nice patriot’s day, even if it did begin at 7 am.
i took today off from wct for the purpose of housecleaning…and also because april vacation is one of the few times that i can take a day…i’m ahead of the game on much of what i need to be getting done right now…and not behind on the other stuff at least.
i think that if i didn’t have to work, i would have a sparkling and beautiful house. i love to clean. i love to cook. deep inside, i really am a domestic goddess. but the problem is, i’m also an intellectual snob. so the idea of staying home and keeping my house beautiful is appealing, but ultimately, not fulfilling. while i love to scrub at grout with vinegar and a toothbrush for the satisfying gunk that peels away, and i love to lemon juice my counters and wash my towels and recycle everything that isn’t moving…it’s not enough. but i miss it when i don’t have time for it.
i think it all comes back to balance. how do i balance the need for intellectual stimulation (which i definitely do not have enough of right now), the need for artistic outlets (ditto), the need for human interaction (which i do have, and love), children (ditto), organization (yes! mostly…at work anyway…organization at home is a work in progress), cooking/cleaning/decorating (only on the rare day of “rest”)…?
ultimately, it may not BE possible. but i refuse to stop wanting it all. i have many needs, and i think that strategizing about how to make my life fit them all is a worthy goal…